Tuesday Again

I don't know how to write about the farm. The plan has changed.....radically. At times it seems that the dream is done, but that is just angry thinking. We still have three pregnant mares. We still have Dove and Ru. We even got April back. Only Ghost is gone.

April came home last night. She was "leased" to a good trainer for the summer. All good, but I don't think April was happy.

We took her straight from that barn to a woman's place that seemed to have fallen in love with her. Wanted April for her daughter to ride. Seemed perfect, but it didn't last. We picked April up yesterday afternoon as the snow started.

We spent some time getting re-acquainted last night. She seemed glad to be back on the farm. Seems like too many horses again, but....... it is what it is. We are what we are.

I stand in the midst of uncertainty. Uncertainty of economic foundation. Uncertainty of what will or should become of the farm. Uncertainty over how many horses to try to keep and how many foals to have in the spring. Sell the pregnant mares? How can we? It was so long in unfolding.

I look back. Seems the lynch pin is pulled and order is sliding over the bank. Big change. The Appaloosa dream started in the summer of 05. Percolated into 06 when it began to coalesce and take form. And here we are. Here I am.

Its Tuesday. Tier's day. Order and sacrifice. Riding and the herd. The solution to all my problems today is acceptance. hmmm page 449? The Sermon on the Mount has been saving me. More meetings. and now..... the missing ingredient. More riding. Again, Mike.... Do you hear me? MORE RIDING.